Monday, June 27, 2005

Ups and Downs

Last week I had a panic attack. Too many things were going on at once-here at the house, with my parents, etc. Rick and I had had an argument, my Mom had started to get worse and I still hadn't rented any of my vacant apartments...it was all just too much at once. I am now having trouble sleeping and my appetite is not very good lately.

I'm starting to feel a little better-not 100% yet. I got 2 of my apartments rented (although one has backed out now) and have a great prospect for tomorrow.

My Dad said that he has noticed a huge change in my Mom at night, she is restless and can't sleep and last night she feel during the night roaming around. He talks about wills and funeral plans every day. He is not going to go to work anymore to stay at home with her.

He told me last night that he has known her for over 45 years and he can tell something is wrong and that she is going downhill fast. It has been very stressful on all of us and I can't talk my Dad into getting help-so it has been mostly on him.

I'm thinking of going to a counselor to help deal with all of this, and in return maybe help him a little. All I feel I can do know is be there for them-but I feel helpless.

Rick's Mom has surgery in the morning, luckily not a major one and she should be home by thursday.

I hope everyone's week is going great :)

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. Hugs to you, Jeff.

Russ

Unknown said...

I just got updated on all your entries - I've been so neglectful lately!! I'm so sorry to hear about your mom and dad. There's just no easy way to cope with a major illness I guess. I wish I could hug you all and make it all better.

Hang in there, and remember to take care of yourself, too.
big hugs
=) kris

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom, too. I haven't been in touch lately; we were gone on vacation for 11 days; and have similar, though not the same, property issues. I just got my folks' house cleaned out; the new owners took possession yesterday. And, I signed the closing on the rest of the property yesterday, as well. I have to take medication for my panic attacks; and it still doesn't always work. A counselor sounds like a good idea. Your dad sounds like mine; the only help he'd take was from me. Sending positive energy your way! Sim

Unknown said...

Doing better? We miss you!!

=) kris