It wasn't meant to be..

I was still torn on whether to keep the puppy earlier today. Rick's son Brian was over and was holding her and she starting having a seizure. I held her and she finally came out of it and acted normal as if nothing had happened.

I had a dog, Bouncer, who had seizures for years and she lived to be 14 so I wasn't too worried about that being a factor although I was worried why the puppy just started having one.

A little later, Rick was holding her, petting on her. She started having another one. Rick handed her to me and about 30 seconds later she was back to normal and while I was kissing on her she went totally limp and died in my arms.

I tried doing CPR but it didn't work. I am still in shock. It brought back so much, having just lost Randy. It brought back losing Bouncer and Reggie who I lost and had tried CPR on him as well.

She was such a cute little precious puppy and I'm so freaking mad and upset that this happened.

February 14, 1995 - September 4, 2008

Rest in peace lil old man-I'll miss you Randy...

Thanks for the Golden Years Sofia

Thanks for the laughs!

Dody Goodman
October 12, 1915 - June 22, 2008



George Carlin
May 12, 1937 - June 22, 2008

I was sad to read today...

Rest in peace: Allan Melvin (Sam the butcher from the "Brady Bunch") and Suzanne Pleshette (Emily Hartley from "The Bob Newhart Show")

Rest in peace Gemina

Gemina was 21 years old:

waiting...

I haven't felt like saying anything lately-mostly been being a bum and hiding under the covers. On November 26th my Mom passed away after about 10 months of fighting cancer. We had the funeral that following Monday and it was sad to be in the same place that we were for my brother less than a month before.

My Dad and sister are having a tough time but at least they are grieving, I feel stuck in a time warp like it hasn't hit yet. Not sure what is going on with that. I keep waiting for them to ask me why I'm not crying.

My Dad's Birthday, Christmas and what would have been their 47th wedding anniversary are all within a week of each other so that will be an even tougher time on my Dad. Hopefully I can be there for him.

We are finally getting a settlement on the car insurance stuff this thursday so hopefully we can get another car-having just the one is not fun.

Bad news at 3AM

I got a call from my Sister on Saturday morning-I could tell something was wrong when I answered. My first thought was my Mom, she has been doing well lately but my thoughts went there.

My Brother had died at 3AM the night before. I was shocked. I went over to my parents house and they were in shock-they still are. He was only 45. Heart attack they said.

My Sister got the call from my Dad and he just said your brother died, and she was freaking out not knowing which one of us he meant. My sister felt bad because earlier in the evening around 11PM he called her and she didn't answer and meant to call him back and forgot.

The funeral is Wednesday. My Dad is beside himself. My Mom is on stronger pills thanks to her doctor, he is worried about her going through all this now while she is going downhill herself.

I have a lot of great memories of my Brother-he always worried about me and told me he loved me no matter what. He was 9 years older than me and when I turned 16-17 I got drunk with him for the first time, got stoned with him for the first time, he helped to teach me to drive, worked on my cars for me so I could save money, and let me be me.

We sort of fell out for about 8-9 years when he moved to Maine, and he had just moved back a few months ago and I saw him a few times and spoke with him. So that was nice to have that. I just wished we could have had more time to get to know each other again.

I'm more sad right now more for my Parents-them having to bury their first born.

Everything else has sort of been put on the back burner.

Saying goodbye to an old friend

I had to put my dachsund Rudy to sleep today. He turned 13 in October. He was just tired and worn out with too many odds against him. It was full circle-the day I got him years ago he fell asleep in my arms on the way home and he did the same thing today. May a thousand angels be dancing around you right now. Sleep well old friend.