Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Past Life Aggression...

I was down last week thinking about how my life has changed from what it used to be to what it is today. I kept thinking of all the good things of my past life comparing them to the bad things in my life now. That was productive!

It took a few comments from a friend to get me to see my error. I started reassessing. I didn't like who I had become in my past life with what I was given. I like myself now mostly. The problems I had in my past life were mostly a direct result of my own reactions to what I was given. My problems now seem so less daunting compared.

I had someone else handling everything for me for so long that now when confronted with something it is almost if I have to "learn" how to deal with it. I'm getting better.

I was lost in my past life, floating by without a care in the world-with blinders on. When the blinders came off it took a lot of energy to recover. In some small ways I still am but I get better everyday.

I owe it all to the scorpio who used me up and spit me out and is now living what was my past life. Poor guy, he has what he deserves.

2 comments:

deREK said...

Looks like we have more in common than I realized. I do the same thing a lot. I'm scared of Scorpio's, although I learned much from one. The same thing happened to me. Maybe he did me a favor, but it does seem hard a times.
derek
http://journals.aol.com/deveil/CelebrationofMyExhistance/

irina said...

I am going through hard times at this very moment. I know one day I will sound like you...
And it is 2 am...